Perspective

I received the most random advice from my pharmacist (of all people) over the weekend which has given me a lot to think about.  He said that what happens in your life and the things you go through don't change, what has to change is your perception of these events.  If you can change your perspective, you open your world to a new dimension and life takes on a whole new meaning.  Needless to say, the queue behind us at the Pharmacy were hoping his perception of an acceptable waiting time for them would change... But what an angel!  The right advice at the right time (and I have to stress here that the timing has to be spot on) makes a world of difference.
So, when the geneticist's office phoned this morning to reschedule Emily's appointment AGAIN,  I have decided that it is to give me the time to be more positive and not so fearful about it.
It is time to take back control of my responses and reactions to the events in my life and not let every 'disappointment' knock me down.  I cannot control what happens in my life.  What I have control over is the way I let it affect me. And from today, through conscious effort, things will be different.  And better.  If for no other reason, than the fact that Emily deserves it.  Taking care of yourself so that your child gets the best extends beyond the time that they are inside of you.  For the rest of your time with them, taking the best care of yourself teaches them that loving yourself is the only and best way to truly be able to love those around you. 

I love you, my darling blessing of a child.